3rd Reason

My third reason to be depressed is that I seem to lack some serious social skills.
I’m really shy around people I don’t know. I know that this doesn’t apply to every single good looking person on Earth, but I’ve often found pretty people to be cruel and insensitive. So I’m pretty much mute around the beautiful people. Also, most of my humour consists of irony and sarcasm and those are nuances of the language that not everybody get, which is why I’m really careful about joking when I’m talking to strangers. I probably come across as boring, but I find that’s better than being the creepy mean person.

Somehow, the thoughts always seems to get distorted on the way out of my head. I’m not a mean person, I’m really not, but I just always accidentally pick the words that seem to indicate negative character traits in the people I’m talking to. I’m actually a bit hypersensitive. By that I mean that I’m hurt any time anyone seems to be saying something bad about me, even when they’re not. I can actually turn a compliment into an insult just by interpretation.

Okay, all of the text above looks really egocentric, but the point I’m trying to make is that I don’t mean to hurt people but I do. I’m so sorry about every accidentally mean thing I’ve ever said to anyone. I wish I could take it back.

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"Go away. I'm all right."
~ H. G. Wells, last words