Hi there.
I'm Eimear. I'm a nerd. I'm overweight. I'm shy. I may be gay. I'm definitely depressed.
Don't worry. Once you get to know me, I'm not actually a bad person.
Do you know what bipolar disorder is? It's when you're constantly on this emotional rollercoaster ride: first you feel like shit, then you feel you've achived Nirvana, then you feel like shit again. And then Nirvana again. Well, depression is like that - only without the Nirvana part. And like bipolar disorder, it only gets worse when left untreated.
How do I know I'm really depressed and not just feeling a bit sad? Well, my first clue was when I started wondering how pleasant a way to kills oneself poisonous mushrooms and/or berries would be. I've also thought about how easy it would be to steal some explosives from this construction site near me. Don't worry, though. I'm far too lazy to actually do something like that. And besides, I'm afraid of somehow screwing up and ending up alive but horribly mutilated.
So, I know by now you must be thinking that I need some serious help. Well, I may later on list the reasons why me getting help is impossible. Suffice to say, I told a close friend that I was feeling depressed and she changed the subject. All I can say is, I must be one hell of an actress since absolutely nobody has realized that I'm actually in trouble here.
Well. That'll be it for today. You'll probably hear from me again.
E.
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Eimear: I'm sorry....I am familiar w/bipolar. You're going through a tough time. You can vent here, though. I know it's small consolation, but we can be here for each other. You can vent or laugh or rage....whatever. Set up your bobble head flwgrs thru Google blogger and I'll put my smiling avatar there...that'll remind you that you're not alone. Come back & visit, ok?
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