What to choose, what to choose. There are som many reasons that I’m depressed, I just don’t know which one to write about today.
Okay, I’ve got one. Even thought this crush I have on my friend is just platonic love, my mood still depends on whether she contacts me or not. Like this one evening when we were texting and everything was great and then she just didn’t answer my SMS. It felt so bad - like she was purposefully ignoring me. She probably wasn’t, of course. I’m just too sensitive.
It’s like this every time I like someone a lot. I had this thing for a guy who went to the same school as me about five years ago, and in those days, just seeing him in the hallway would make my day. And then if I didn’t see him the next day, it would break my day.
This annoys me. A lot. I want to be independent and I can’t do that when somebody has that much influence on me and doesn’t even realize it.
I should be an independent, confident 21st Century woman, damn it! Not a self-centered whiny brat…
E.
"Go away. I'm all right."
~ H. G. Wells, last words
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